Feelings

“Did I ask, unaskable?”  Mannat asked Sam. “Normally, the answer of your question would be, Yeah, it is askable . But in this case, it's different.” Sam replied. “Why? I mean, I just asked his name” Mannat said “Like formally.” Sam took long breath. He knew the reason. “Well.” Mannat continued “I won’t ask him again but you can always tell me his name.” Sam nodded. “Then tell me. What’s in a name? Why he behaved so awkward?” Mannat asked again. “Do you know who said that?” Sam queried. “What? Who said what? Clear yourself.” “Do you know who said, What’s in a name?” Sam cleared his-self. “Yeah, I know. It’s Shakespeare.  And I remember that quote, too. A rose by any other name would smell as sweet .” She tried to sound the way Romeo would say. “You, read?” “Sometimes.” Mannat  said  and asked “Anyway, what was the reason behind that Shakespearean question?” “You got his name.” “What?”  Said Mannat. Eyes wide open. “Yeah, It is wha...

Time Flies. Seconds after Hours after Days after Weeks. The boy still couldn't found a way to communicate with Mannat. He was not like a stalker or something. He just never had the courage to begin. And then one day.... He was at the parking, waiting for Sam to come. Normally, Sam and the boy come together but something came up to sam. So, boy was told to wait there. He saw mannat coming. Goosebumps. Sweat. Anxiety. She parked right after the boy's bike. Red scooter . he noticed. Until that day, he witnessed the beauty only in class. She comes little late, leaves little early. Actually, saying Mannat, late, would be little harsh. Maybe it was punctuation. Anyway, boy glanced, so did Mannat. Boy smiled. Hesitation. So did Mannat. And then, she gone. Wish remained wish . Standing there, the boy only wished something more to happen. Never the less, there was something for the boy to be happy, to rejoice. At least they exchange looks, they exchanged sm...

That night the boy was thinking about that girl in red. Mannat was her name which means Wish. Needless to say that he was wishing for a wish . Next day, while getting ready for the college he just kept formals aside. Took monkey-washed, light blue jeans and half sleeved black T.  He met Sam at parking. Sam was impressed by his friend's new attire. "This is good". Sam said, Boy smiled. The boy took last bench by himself.  Sam delighted and relaxed because he didn't need to convince his friend. The boy set and waited for Mannat. She came, this time colour was the same but it was T-shirt instead of Kurti. Jeans was also of the same colour but bit lighter then yesterday. Her favourite colour or colour combination?  but it suited her. Hair, tied, as were yesterday. She looks really beautiful.  He noticed something between elbow and palm. A bracelet, that's new. Maybe pure silver or just silver coated and something was hanging with it. He narrowed his...

So the boy did what he thought was doable. He took engineering. With Sam. Prestigious Institute of Engineering. Like the name, this college is one of the most prestigious engineering colleges in the state. It's hard to qualify for admission. But like Sam said. Every good college accepts the donation. It was the first day of college. First day of new beginning. He wore formals while Sam did his best to loo good. "Oh! man, What is this?" Sam asked looking at the formals of the boy. "What?" "It's college like The COLLEGE, " cool age" so you must look cool. Why this striped shirt and formal pant? Are you some kind of ridiculous government employee or what?" "It doesn't matter what I wear?" "It does matter as far as the college is concern, my boy. Look the environment. Feel the environment. Look everybody. They look cool, aren't they?" Sam said pointing everybody around them. There were lots of handba...

The boy stood up and broke the chain of thoughts and called the immediate person came in his mind. "Hello, Sam?" Boy called immediately. "Yeah, who else.. " Sam replied casually. "I want to be an engineer." Boy said what he wanted to say. Maybe it was just a casual idea of not being alone in different faces than to share a bench with the one he recognize. "Oh ! wow. Congratulation, dude. Finally, you got what u want." Sam said excitedly. Don't know. "I think so.." he replied. "So, we will join the same college?" "That's the primary idea." Silence for few seconds. "Bee Tee Double U, it's 11:30 PM and you are not sleeping yet. May I know the reason?" "What's BEE-TEE-Double U?" asked the confused boy.  "Okay, got it." He suddenly realized what Sam had abbreviated. "It's By the Way. I don't know what was the need of doing this short-form-thing ....

The boy was actually surprised. He never thought of finding parents at this time. Usually, it's lunch time but not together . "So, its distinction, yeah?" Father asked. Excited. "Of course, it must be." Mother replied. Excited. "Second class." Boy murmured. "Oh!" Father said, hesitated "Second is not bad either." "Of course not. Second is way better than no class." The mother said with the same tone but added fake consolation. The boy knew his parents very well. Fake smiles, fake consolation and fake pride. He also knew that it's not their fault. They tried to cheer him up or maybe cheer themselves up. In any case, the boy knew he didn't succeed the legacy of The Doctors and The Engineers. Who cares? Expectations are a burden. A burden forced by someone else. He still has to make a decision. What to do? At 56.12. What, he can do? Like Sam, he can join engineering or even medical, too. Lunch went sile...

"Mother died today. Or may be yesterday, I can't be sure...." he started second novel in recent time. It was hot May morning. Sun spreading as much hotness he can but Earth decided to rotate slowly. For the boy Earth has different plans. It was a result day and in the midst of words, boy just forgot. "Hey, wake up. Its your result." Father didn't. Who cares. "Are you awake?" Father inquired. "Yeah." Son answerd. "Come soon. We are waiting." said father and left son thinking. What should be the result. Pass. Fail. Does it matter? Novel closed. The Stranger, it named. Boy completed his morning rituals. "Come. honey, eat this. Its specially for today." Mother said delighted. Son expressed annoyed. He ate and listened. "Today is the day for your future. I wish you become.... blah blah blah..." Father. Excited "Today, you will find your path to become..... blah blah blah..." Mother. Excited...

"It was best of time, It was worst of time...." He just started reading novel after a long time. Almost a year later. Time went so slow and so fast at the same time. Its vacation now and result will arrive soon. may be after 4-6 days later. He wasn't sure about his result. who cares was his ultimate motto. "We don't know what will happen tomorrow or even second after. We should just live the moment instead of over thinking it. Future is unpredictable so as present coz present was future a moment ago." He said to his  friend who was asking him to join medical or engineering. Yeah, that was to philosophical for his age, I mean he was 17. He never liked medical, Reason : Don't know and never liked engineering too, Reason : Don't know either. His father was doctor and mother, an engineer. May be that was the reason but he never admitted. So he grew between the discussion of medicines and softwares at dining table which of course was boring to him. H...