Feelings

The boy stood up and broke the chain of thoughts and called the immediate person came in his mind. "Hello, Sam?" Boy called immediately. "Yeah, who else.. " Sam replied casually. "I want to be an engineer." Boy said what he wanted to say. Maybe it was just a casual idea of not being alone in different faces than to share a bench with the one he recognize. "Oh ! wow. Congratulation, dude. Finally, you got what u want." Sam said excitedly. Don't know. "I think so.." he replied. "So, we will join the same college?" "That's the primary idea." Silence for few seconds. "Bee Tee Double U, it's 11:30 PM and you are not sleeping yet. May I know the reason?" "What's BEE-TEE-Double U?" asked the confused boy.  "Okay, got it." He suddenly realized what Sam had abbreviated. "It's By the Way. I don't know what was the need of doing this short-form-thing ....

The boy was actually surprised. He never thought of finding parents at this time. Usually, it's lunch time but not together . "So, its distinction, yeah?" Father asked. Excited. "Of course, it must be." Mother replied. Excited. "Second class." Boy murmured. "Oh!" Father said, hesitated "Second is not bad either." "Of course not. Second is way better than no class." The mother said with the same tone but added fake consolation. The boy knew his parents very well. Fake smiles, fake consolation and fake pride. He also knew that it's not their fault. They tried to cheer him up or maybe cheer themselves up. In any case, the boy knew he didn't succeed the legacy of The Doctors and The Engineers. Who cares? Expectations are a burden. A burden forced by someone else. He still has to make a decision. What to do? At 56.12. What, he can do? Like Sam, he can join engineering or even medical, too. Lunch went sile...

"Mother died today. Or may be yesterday, I can't be sure...." he started second novel in recent time. It was hot May morning. Sun spreading as much hotness he can but Earth decided to rotate slowly. For the boy Earth has different plans. It was a result day and in the midst of words, boy just forgot. "Hey, wake up. Its your result." Father didn't. Who cares. "Are you awake?" Father inquired. "Yeah." Son answerd. "Come soon. We are waiting." said father and left son thinking. What should be the result. Pass. Fail. Does it matter? Novel closed. The Stranger, it named. Boy completed his morning rituals. "Come. honey, eat this. Its specially for today." Mother said delighted. Son expressed annoyed. He ate and listened. "Today is the day for your future. I wish you become.... blah blah blah..." Father. Excited "Today, you will find your path to become..... blah blah blah..." Mother. Excited...

"It was best of time, It was worst of time...." He just started reading novel after a long time. Almost a year later. Time went so slow and so fast at the same time. Its vacation now and result will arrive soon. may be after 4-6 days later. He wasn't sure about his result. who cares was his ultimate motto. "We don't know what will happen tomorrow or even second after. We should just live the moment instead of over thinking it. Future is unpredictable so as present coz present was future a moment ago." He said to his  friend who was asking him to join medical or engineering. Yeah, that was to philosophical for his age, I mean he was 17. He never liked medical, Reason : Don't know and never liked engineering too, Reason : Don't know either. His father was doctor and mother, an engineer. May be that was the reason but he never admitted. So he grew between the discussion of medicines and softwares at dining table which of course was boring to him. H...